When the Fun Starts Feeling Like a Job...
Again, life happens and I haven't been on here much. I'm so lame.
But more than that the transition to this new blog has left me feeling like this just wasn't fun anymore.
Which just shouldn't be true.
I love to write. I was the girl who would ask to stay in from recess to write. The girl who went to her diary first to scribble through tears. I was born to write.
So boo to this feeling like a job because this should be fun. The reason I started this blog (in case you were wondering) is to keep a record of our family for me and for the kiddos to read when they are all grown up.
And it is so edifying! Recently my cousin who is also the web designer was able to transfer ALL of my old blog posts onto this site. It was so fun to read through and see how God has moved in our lives. For example...
When Calvin was a year and a half old Nick lost his job. It was horrible. Joy sucking bad. And the kids were young enough that we made a vow about (or at least figured we'd take a stab at) them not even knowing what was going on. We didn't want anything to change for them. So Nick stayed home but Emma still went to preschool and we still had Christmas and we muddled through.
At least I thought we muddled through. But looking back through those blog posts helped me to see how awesome we were doing. We had apples to pick and pumpkins to carve along with picnics to celebrate with and "happy pumpkin carving" decorated cakes to enjoy. We weren't starving, or scared in the pictures. We were happy and laughing and enjoying watching how our babies were growing. And so I have this blog to celebrate how far we've come and how much God can carry us through. We are better, we are stronger, we are here. And this blog can be a testament to that.
And while that was why I started writing this blog I have continued writing this blog because I have had countless parents tell me through so many different avenues that our transparency in the struggles of homeschooling and autism and marriage and everything else is so nice to see. Because when you are in the trenches it is so nice to sometimes hear someone else saying "geesh, this is just the worst." Because sometimes it is. And sometimes it's the best. And I'll say that too.
So I'm getting back into blogging. Nick's head has hurt, our son has been crazy, I've been marketing a sale, organizing curriculum, planning a school year, and cleaning a house. But mostly I've been with two little guys trying to find fun things to do as we celebrate the end of the summer and the welcoming of Autumn.
May you find the joy in that too.